So, something REALLY BIG has come up, and it's not something I can really talk about right now. I really want to talk about it, but part of me knows I can't because a) I might get my hopes up too high for it and jinx it, and b) this thing has just come up, and it's literally just up there, in the air, with nothing really concrete to it yet. But take my word for it. It's BIG.
Now, along with this big thing comes a lot of excitement, but also a lot of anxiety. I'm surprised that I slept last night. I have this problem where when I get to really thinking about something, my mind just won't turn off. It just keeps going and going and there is no way it will turn off for something silly like say, sleep. And it's not even like what I'm thinking about necessarily involves whatever is causing the anxiety. I'll start making lists of things I need to do the following day - make a lunch, take out the trash, stop at the ATM so I'll have money for coffee, get gas, maybe switch two of my dogs around so that I can take a longer lunch. It can go on for hours. Then I start obsessing about how I will never be able to get up in the morning, and how I need to GET TO SLEEP get to sleep get to sleep now. It's really a problem.
Last night I slept fine. But I spent all day obsessing about this BIG THING, and I have a whole bunch of things to look up on the internet, and I'm sure that tonight when I lay down to sleep I will be caught up weighing all the information I found, and thinking of lists of things I forgot to research. Ugh. Maybe I will just get drunk and pass out. Or take some Benadryl.